Daniel
Lyrics
never once betrayed by an authority you trust¹ a moral code with room for greed that fits just like a glove the stories culture wrote for you² the world as it appears to you you're insecure in simple things the ones people expect in classrooms you just dream of girls and cis vanilla sex everything feels possible when nothing's been impossible you've never felt scared to be yourself³ raised in wealth⁴ safe and sound never vulnerable tell someone your secrets and they'll only like you more they'll thirst for the attention that they didn't want before flowers open up to you as easy as you want them to⁵ so bear your healthy heart and know this risk will have reward sly enough to earn her trust and leave her wanting more⁶ confident in what you'll say without an ounce of irony you've never felt scared to be yourself raised in wealth safe and sound never vulnerable ------------------------------------------------------------ ¹ 978-1595230324 ² 978-1-57731-593-3 ³ 0-465-05652-0 ⁴ 0-446-67745-0 ⁵ 978-1598870923 ⁶ 0-06-055473-8
Song Notes
this song is inspired by a friend of mine i knew from elementary school. he was (is?) straight, white, cis, into sports, Christian, conventionally attractive, inoffensively funny, you know the deal. he was extroverted, confident and kind and i fucking hated him for it. why? because i was a weird pale lizard freak! and i could barely handle this fucked up world while he could easily talk to people and play basketball. the problem was me, not him, but that was going to take me a verrrry long time to figure out. but maybe it wasn't even my fault. i was coping terribly with all the bad stuff i had to deal with as a child and i wish i could make it all disappear with a magic wand. i'm sure he's lived through years of real, complex struggles, wins and loses; i was obvlivious and unwilling to give him that credit. i have no idea where he is now, but i hope he's thriving.
Recording Notes
this song was originally on acoustic guitar and it was boring. recording it on electric guitar instead, still wasn't right. the magic: do both!! i want you to imagine me and Michael in the studio for an hour fucking around with a guitar slide trying to get a cool slide part for the song. yes, it was fun!! i remember we played around with different tunings. no, i don't remember what the tuning was... i think i used the Electro Harmonix Lumberjack pedal for this one. really weird pedal, but i like the challenge of figuring out how to make a pedal work (see also: analogizer). i used just about every EHX overdrive/fuzz/distortion pedal on these songs.
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