Astro Alloy - Eighteen

Available for streaming on Bandcamp, Spotify, et al.

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Lyrics

if i could cure anything i would cure loneliness
i would be a ♀ in love
but i cannot bloom in the dark of my room
the sorrow is spreading from heart to gut

  i'm stuck here by myself
  witness ♀ love someone else
  i was promised a valentine's day
  this is not who i will be

i'm hot and i'm cool and i do great in gym
should i get new hobbies or get better friends?
perhaps i should parlo italiano
ciao bella, vaffanculo¹

  i'm stuck here by myself
  witness ♂ love someoene else
  i was promised a valentine's day
  this is not who i will be

    i need a bar of soap to place inside my mouth
    clean up all the filth that i keep puking up
    who wants to hear me complain?
    it's not self-aware or interesting,
    witness me circle the drain
    tick-tock² my time away

if i could cure anything i would cure loneliness
i would be a ♂ in love
but i cannot bloom in the dark of my room
the sickness has spread into my lungs

  i'm stuck here by myself
  witness ⚥ love someone else
  i was promised a valentine's day
  this is not who i will be

fuck³


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¹ non parlo italiano. sono un idiota.
² 我玩抖音打发时间
³ "Гавно" если ты русский

Song Notes

oh no i started this album with an acoustic song? w̶h̶y̶,̶ ̶t̶h̶o̶u̶g̶h̶?̶
don't blame me... this was my friend Alan's idea
he liked the song and i was going to leave it off!!
are there other songs i wanted more?  maybe :O
but i also like taking ~creative risks~
i also like how this song flows into the next... good dynamic buildup!!
look there were too many songs to cut, i was going crazy killing my babies

so what's this song about?
uhh well it's about being AWESOME
but NO ONE LIKES YOU ANYWAYS

do i relate to these lyrics? no, i suck at the gym
i did, however, totally fucking flunk Italian in college
(i was required to take a language, please leave me alone)
but now i can go to Patrizi's in Austin 
    and pronounce everything on the menu correctly
and i can write a joke
    and put it in a song

Recording Notes

i wanted to record at least one song without a click track
this one was done guitar+voice together
it's so weird how things like that can make a big difference

Next: i want to be special to you (and only you)