Astro Alloy - Eighteen

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Sara(h)

Lyrics

i'm surprised that after all this time
it would still feel special you are mine
stuck in school with plans made to escape
skipping seventh period to sneak out the gate

  you told your dad you stayed with friends
  i told my mom some other lie
  and when i stare at you tonight
  your naked body in the light
  you'll laugh at me, and i'll concede...

i'm braver in my thoughts than in my heart
staring at your body as a work of art
i won't dare to ask what's there for you
i'm not sure what happens next but i'll assume

  oh, you can see something in me
  uniquely me, nobody else
  we brush our teeth as vinyl plays
  our favorite album, Icky Thump
  before we sleep you lean on me,
  ask "is this love?"

i
  don't
    love
      you
        despite
          your
            flaws

            i
          love
        you
      for
    all
  you
are

Song Notes

when i was in college i was friends with a girl named Sarah and another girl named Sara so i think at one point i refered to them in a message as Sara(h). this song is not about them!

i wanted to write about real love, which isn't about ignoring or coping with or getting over flaws, but the wonder of seeing a whole person, including all the things that should be reasons not to like them, and seeing how all these things are inseperable to the whole and accepting the whole.

i love this song a lot. i love playing it, i love how fun it is, i think it is kind and good and sweet.

Recording Notes

yesss finally a drum machine!! i don't know why but it was crucial that i use a drum machine at least once on this thing. can you imagine, 24 songs and yet none of them feature a drum machine?? but thankfully we got it. and some fun samples, too.

Next: Due Tomorrow?? Do Tomorrow!!