Astro Alloy - Eighteen

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I Want To Be Special To You (And Only You)

Lyrics

i'm always told that i should like myself
but the hard part is convincing someone else
it's not like i can tell them that i like them
so it feels like i somehow have to trick them

  and i try hard,
  trying to look important
  but also laissez faire

  like i don't like you
  but then again maybe i do
  also i don't care

i check-in with my friends before i text you
i straighten out my posture when i see you
i worry that i might look needy
my motives and emotions are so buried

  and i try hard,
  trying to look important
  but also laissez faire

  like i don't like you
  but then again maybe i do
  also i don't care

    i want to be special to you, and only you
    i want to be special to you

Song Notes

i sound like the Weakerthans
(i mean, more than the one where i sing about a cat)

what's it about?
well, what do you do when someone SHOULD like you but DOESN'T?
you gotta play THE GAME :((((
you gotta be ALOOF >:(
act like you don't care! make 'em jealous! :O
be cOcKy and cOoL B)
no this does not work
but then again,
	neither does saying "i love you" to your crush

Recording Notes

i was like "hey michael what can i do to sing this last part,
besides just like... singing into a normal mic?"
and he somehow was not like "wtf are you talking about"
	he was like "what if you use the studio talkback mic?"
and so i sang that last part in the control room
	with michael standing behind me it was weird

my favorite guitar tone is on this song
this song features layered fuzz guitar
	(did i mention i like the the Smashing Pumpkins?)

my other favorite guitar tone is that last part
it is the Graphic Fuzz pedal, so underrated, one of my favs
with that dynamic expressive "edge-of-breakup" guitar tone
	if you're a guitar person you're like "totally" and so jealous
	and if you're not a guitar person i am sorry i cannot explain	

Josh & i practiced this song a few times
then he nailed the drum track on his first (and only) take
ahhh... professionals

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